“Run these trails.” he said, “I need you to focus.”

Count your steps and

Choose your path wisely

Know these tracks could end in death

But thats not something

That should keep you from going

One, two, three, four…

You’re so close to winning and

To far in to quit

If you can hear me from sidelines,

He said, “I need you to keep going.”

Are you choosing wisely?

Then stop doubting things you believe in

Five, six, seven, eight…

The ground rumbles beneathe your feet

You are now footsteps from winning

Forcing yourself to not look back

That sound is just your heart beating

You glance a peak anyways,

Thats when you saw a train coming

Nine, ten, eleven, twelve…

You stare at the bright lights

You hear him say,

“These are the obstacles that keep you from going, Learn to overcome.”

You see, pain can do beautiful things

So close your eyes

Thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen…

Control your anger

This isnt where you stop focusing

Getting closer, and closer

You still keep going like he once said,

“In certain situations, theres just no avoiding.”

Monsters.

I wake up from coma

The whole world is screaming

I should have told you

Before you stopped believing

So this is how the world ends

No explosions, just feelings

I need something to grasp on

These hospital beds are shaking

It’s the quiet kind of chaos

The sweet type of lonely

I might be awake

But maybe I’m still dreaming

Mother, can I trust these people?

Reality became woozy

I fell back down, and closed my eyes

I crossed my fingers and hoped to die

That I’ll be happy on what they call

The other side

Alive With The Glory Of Love

I sit in my corner

Not hoping

Not expecting

But embracing whats around me

I’m not looking for attention

Just waiting for someone to join me

My shutter of silence says so much more

I’m that untold story, 

I’m alone walking these hallways

But I swear I’m not lonely,

It’s easy to forget what I’m here for,

But trust me, I’ll keep going

The goal today is to be alive, and

Not just living

My heart flutters, my pulse grows

You spoke to me, and told me all I was

Which was all I needed, to know

I’m finally exactly where I want to be

In between the peaceful moment, 

Right before exploding

That’s when you hold me tight and

Remind me, you’re the one reason

I’m staying.

Anchors.

I’m a sailor with a boat, that’s all i’ll ever be

It’s you, who keeps me going 

You’re the tides that rock me back and forth

You’re the wind that’s always blowing and

When the storms try to drown me

You lift me up, and give me

Reasons to keep believing 

You’re the light in pure darkness

You’re the ocean and

You’re the shores

Keep me from sinking

I’ll keep you from leaving

You’re the horizon and

What’s ahead of me is preety and

You’re the melody

I’ll always sway to

These nights don’t have to end,

You don’t have to go

We can sail out into the sea,

Get lost with eternity.

Here I lay

Upon cold ground

Which once gave me life

As it starts to tremble

Under my clumsy feet

I hear you walking away

You made it look so easy

I was breathing in everything; but air

Waiting

For you to save

What couldn’t be saved,

To breathe life back into me

To get one last look

At what was left of me

But you’ll walk right past dead bodies

I won’t stand out 

I’m another cloud in your sky

You’ll never see

I’m another tree lost in your horizon

The background of pretty things

I’m another star in your galaxy

I’m another whisper in your head

The thought, you wish you would have stayed.

When you had the chance you didnt take.

Starting Over.

Grass stains on your blue jeans

These faded dreams

I know its hard 

Your scrapped knees and the will to be

Something more..

Black eyes, youre always first in line

Faking smiles, 

These struggles

Take it easy, tiger

Before it hurts to wake up

Take it easy

Before it hurts you anymore

Best things won’t come easy

A few more years ‘till then its a battle

We’ll breeze through this winter

And spring into summer

We’ll fall into autummn

Fuck it, we’ll start over

Take it easy, tiger

Before it hurts to wake up

Take it easy

Before it hurts you anymore

I know this isnt fair

You’re a little girl

Stuck in a small town

With little hands

You’ve already built up a world of laughter

So take it easy, tiger

Youre so much better

Theres a world outside

I swear its brighter.

Drowning In The Shower.

shirts all inside out

your hearts on you sleeve

and your shoes are all worn out

your running and your, barefeet

as the water rises up 

but back then i couldnt swim

i dropped dead at your knees

and came back swinging

this is the sound of 14 years of aggravation

teaching myself day by day

how to be stronger

even if i couldnt breathe

i couldnt breathe at all

id swore id come back

and now im here

to bring you home again

and oh 

this is the sound of 14 years of aggravation

i still shiver like i used too

ive got to learn to be stronger just for you…

one look in your eyes, and im brought to tears

im sorry, im sorry i took so long

but these walls theyve been trying

to hold me down

but youre still drowning in the shower

water makes its way above

im still trying, im still trying

hold your chin up higher

grab my hand

we cant possibly drown any faster

this isnt the end yet no, no

you wont drown tonight

and this is the sound, of 14 years of aggravation

i taught myself to swim

just so i could save you

ill carry you home again

i wrote this listening to Lorenzo’s song, which is probably why theyre so alike.

Darkness.

I continue to walk as i saw darkness fill the air

I could feel it tingling beneath my toes

I feel it covering me as light disappears

Darkness has made the biggest entrance

Finally reaching my neck swallowing me, as i didn’t care

I could taste the sweet bitterness in my mouth 

My breaths started to shorten, my eyes flicker

A feeling i can no longer fight

Familiar sights start to greet me

It was so warm inside 

I know my time has come

Ill close my eyes one last time

Whispering

Everything will turn out just fine.

Pardon Me.

I tremble as i make my way back into reality

I dont belong here anymore

Cant you see?

Im bare and vulnerable

Wandering off just to see

If i can breathe

In a world that’s chained me down

I’m dying for an escape

Breathing the same air

Youve poisoned with your words

Dreaming the same dreams

In hopes that one day ill believe

Looking into your eyes

I feel the need to apologize

Even if ive lost all sense of belonging

The secret ive kept inside

The one you want to hear

Im so sorry that I wasnt what you asked for

Im sorry that I had to let you go

Im sorry that i ever even thought we could be

With all said and done

Im sorry

But in the end just know

You killed me.

Faded Dreams.

The air was thick and cold The night I entered my Favorite escape To hide with the hope of being found To run from my enemies Silently whispering ‘Please, just catch me now’ I’ve got nothing to say But a wide open mouth Patiently waiting for the words To figure themselves out I wish for a change But pray of consistency You were so easy to love I was so eager to find But now there’s nowhere to run No where to hide No breath of fresh air No sighs of relief The things that slowly take away life As we’re on the edge of death But my dear, That’s exactly what separates me from you.

Don’t know what to name this..

I was never lost

Just thrown away

Into the gaps of a sidewalk

Into the emptiness of the darkness

These holes filled with lies

And metal cobwebs

I’m too weak to fight my way out

My knees with splinters

My hands with blisters

I’ll be fine though, isn’t that what they all say?

I don’t need you I’ll be okay,

Alone and without a care I assure you

Tomorrow will become yesterday

My worries will wear off

But in the end I’ll still be here

In the gaps of a sidewalk

In the emptiness of the darkness.

Distant.

I sit far from the ocean

Praying these rains will somehow

Bring the shore closer

Ive got so many bottles

Filled with every word

That never fell from my lips

Every breath you stole, 

When i thought i had a good grip

All these overused lines

Tonight ill set them free

Let them sink into the heavens

Walk away, counting every mistake ive made

Closing my eyes shut

Ill die a thousand ways

As my world comes undone

I know 

You are the rarest soul ive ever known

But i let go.

Gone

I stood there in silence
Watching you plan out
My very own death
The delightful way you’d pick me up
Just to watch me fall
Shatter on the floors
You were bound to see me shed blood
On these hard rock floors
I wanted to run
I wanted to hide
You held me tight and swore to me
I was under the safest of shelters
I closed my eyes shut tight
You saw me cry
You saw me die
You stood there in silence
Watching quietly you took my life

Saved.

My heart was ignited years ago

Waiting to erupt to explode

I close my eyes

I tell myself whats to fear

Times ticking

Who’s gonna notice, I’ve dissapeared?

I can feel the fire getting closer and closer

And there it goes

The smoke fills my lungs 

My world comes down

I shout but nothing comes out

The blazing hot fire within me

As the hot steam makes

It’s into my warm pumping blood

I reached for you, i did

But you werent there, again

You set my heart on fire

You knew i’d die 

You watched it happen

That comes to me as no surprise

I could feel my heart collapsing

The dizzyness and confusuion of the hour

How you stood there

As i coughed and coughed and coughed

The silent sobs, and screams

Trying to escape from my dry lips

You didnt save me.

Again.